你让我感到我对你的感情是...不真实的...

frienz...do u all think bee4 i m your frienx...

i had sacrifice all my time...i had keep all my sad things...
y r all still keep hurting me?

Yesterday is my school carnival koko...
i should b very happy cox i sold off all my yam cake n onde-onde...
i praise to my Lord cox although my yam cake got a bit 'cao sok', but dun have any food poisoning case o any complain...

but...
my story jux began...
Last friday,
we went to Felicia house at 10pm to make onde-onde...
we were very excited n happy to play the flour n try to learn he to make it perfect...

n somebody oso think like we all are perfect...
she kept scolding us...
Keep blaming us...
that spoil all the onde-onde...
i tried my best...
but i got nth...
they didnt take me is their friens...
Haix...
i m hurt!!!

haix...
my heart keep bleeding until nw...
n nevermine i kept 'diam diam'...
i didnt voice out wat my problem...

until the next day...
our ketua became more terrible...
she didnt help a lot in the stall...
is wei yean n me kept shouting n felicia, wang jue, sze pei, chee yin sold the food assiduously...
although chee yin, sze pei n wang jue went for cc n late there but i didnt blame them...
At least, they knew that they were wrong...
but U DUNNO AT ALL!!!

haizx!!!
suan!!!my heart keep bleeding...

after that U put some piece of paper on the table n didnt tell us wat the paper is...
then when we need to clean the table...sze peiasked me wat is d paper...
i dunno wat it is...N WHRE R U THAT TIME,my dearest KETUA!!!??!(u no need to answer me,u noe the answer n 4 everybody too...)

then i called sze pei to throw away the paper...
when u came back...
didnt u asked for my explaination?
DID U?
u DIDNT!!!
u scolded me!!!
u blamed me that i lost the paper...

nvm...
i'swallowed' all my hateness to u...n blame to myself...
u didnt mine to me,
i went to find cik vun to request for another piece paper...
i walked around the school ....
1st round...
2nd round...
3rd round...
still cant find cik vun...

the forth round...
i found...
but not cik vun...

I MET U!!!
wat u had say uto me?
sorry?
sue yee?
No!!!

u said,
WUI...I FOUND D PAPER IN THE DUSTBIN>>>U NO NEED FIND LIAO>>
Wtf!!!
i still being keep quiet...

then, after the carnival koko...
i m soooooo tiredddd!!!
i had been awaken 4 the whole night be4 that!!!!
so, i have no moood to play any games,although i had promise that i must go 4 war game to support scout...
but i ruin my promise...
SORRY!!!

so...
i wanted to go back home at first...
but dunno y i went to find suet yee in the computer lab...
i saw all the ketua gerai n teachers r counting the tokens...
but i didnt c u!!!
then i thought u at somewhere else...
but i didnt think that u r so u had been so unresposible...
u WENT BACK HOME!!!!
WITH D TOKENS!!!

then nvm ...
i called u come back to count the money n i wan to go back home to rest cox i had another tuition at super tuition centre from 6-9o'clock...

but u said to me like this!!!
HUH?!!?Y MUST TODAY?!?!HUH!!!??I M AT HOME NOW LE!!!MONDAY ONLY COUNT THE TOKEN CANOT MEH??!!!

U kept asking me y must u come back n y u cant count 4 me...
i blurred!!1
n i oso dunno y i accepted...n i called u to bring the token 4 me n i help u to count...
I HAD SACRIFICE MY TIME!!!MY MOM'S IME!!!THE TIME 4 ME TO SLEEP!!!

i cant accpet all this things!!!
but i did!!!

n then my mom kept waiting me outside...
when i got the pack of token!!!
u noe what?!!!!!

the token was messed-up with some rubbish...
some had broken into two pieces!!!
ONE WORD...
MESSY!!!!

when i kept counting the money...my heart kept bleeding...my eyes kept tearing...
my mind kept asking me y!!!

mayb i m very appreciate that i had those good n best friends like u ...
so i sacrifice all my things 4 u!!!scolded by teachers...wasting my time...wasting my tears...

so i dunno that hu can b trusted now...
frenx??
family??
but i think there is a best frien to me
my GOD..
i had lost my 信心...

But i m not praising myself had been so kind n so good...
jux i dunno hu is the ppl that i can voice out all my problems to...
so i had choose to voice out here...i m not perasan!!!


tq 4 lending me your eyes!!!
tq